We'll go from there

Since I haven't posted in a while, I'll just put everything in a lecture-digest format.

~Went back home to my parents for the holidays on December 17th, which happened to be my brother's birthday also. We didn't really celebrate his birthday that date because he was coming home late from school and I went with my mom to the mall for Christmas shopping.
~It was my cousin's wedding on the 18th and everything was screwed up. I felt bad for my cousin because the things were not going according to plan. My cousin is a guy. That night, we celebrated my younger brother's birthday.
~I can't remember what happened on the 19th. Seriously.
~I slept most of my stay there.
~I went to my other company's Christmas party on 21st. My friends took me out for dinner after at Friday's.
~I hang out with my girl friends on 22nd. They gave me gifts but I had nothing to give. I was broke. It was fun, though. I miss my girls but we have our own lives now. We all seem to be happy with our lives, except for one - who is desperate to find someone to love who will love her back. I hope she finds him, or rather, I hope he finds her.
~I can't remember what I did on 23rd.
~Christmas Eve was at my aunt's house. It was fun but not as fun as the previous years. I don't know why. But it was fun all the same. I love my family and even though I chose to move away, I'm still thankful that I was born within the family line that I have.
~We didn't sleep till 5am. Christmas day we were awoken because one of my older brothers was treating brunch. Gotta love a loving family! Dinner was at my aunt's house again.
~On the 26th, lunch was on my eldest brother after church. The dinner was at the hotel, treat of my aunt's friend and his family. I won 50 bucks at the game! We went to watch movie Meet The Fockers - funny! Didn't get home till almost 2am.
~My flight was at 8:30am on the 27th. I had to wake up at 5:30am so I can take a shower, eat breakfast, beat the traffic and get to the airport on time. My friends picked me up at the airport (10am) and it was pouring. After dropping my luggage in my room, we went straight to lunch. Hang out, movies - Darkness (don't see it, it's horrible) and Closer (good movie). Hang out.
~28th, went to drop off Christmas presents and picked up mail at 408. Stayed home after.
~29th, started work.
~30th, worked.
~Today, I bought a fish (the snail came with it...so cute!). I named the fish Zephyr and the snail Sly. New Year's Eve...I don't know yet but I'm on my way to my friend's house than we'll go from there.

I'm back

I went back home for my very short vacation on december 17th. I left home this morning. I'm really tired right now because I don't have much sleep so I'll just write details later. I'm tired but I'm back.

Until the next attack

Yesterday after fixing and finishing my friend's audio, we left to eat out at our regular hang out with my other friend. It's actually my other friend whom I usually go with on Monday nights but last night all three of us were free. As usual, our topics were deep, mind and emotional boggling issues of life. Mostly of relationships - their relationships and my lack of it, they said even commitmentphobics have their time, yeah right - and how scary life suddenly became after I graduated. All in all, good food, good company, and good conversation. We called it a night at past 10pm.

Today I just worked. I slept in till 10am, I didn't even want to get up. I got over my series of insomnia which is good. I finally get some rest at night. That's just how it is with me. When I get an insomnia attack, it goes on for a while and then it stops...until the next attack.

I've lived a good life

Let's see...I can't really remember what I did Friday. It seems so long ago. I think I worked. I may have ran some errands. I didn't go out at night. My friend called me after her work and wanted to go out but I declined because I was going to work the next day. I think I pretty much stayed home that day, with the TV and Internet.

Saturday. I started work at 5:30am. I don't remember much from this day also. I remember that I was supposed to go out with one of my friends because it was her birthday last week. And I backed out. I have my reasons of not going out that night, of course. For starters, I'm not really in the best financial status right now and going out - clubbing to be more specific - requires money. Second, I was doing my other friend's audio for her 18th birthday party for next week. Since I couldn't make it to her party, I have to make up for it somehow. Third, I was just not in the mood. What can I say? Moods like that just happen. Well, my other friends dropped by to get the music that I was working on. One of my girl friends also dropped off the books that she was giving me. I was also supposed to go with them since I was done with the music, and hang out to a friend's house. And yet, when they got here, I told them that I would just stay home. They understood, of course. They knew that I needed rest and they were aware of my insomnia issues. I think I'm becoming a flake and I don't like it.

Sunday, I slept in. It felt good to actually had some sleep. I went to my brother's friend's (I guess she's my friend now, too ;) company party. There was a white elephant exchange gift. I got a dvd player. Cool, huh? I stayed there until past 6pm. I went straight to my friend's dance practice. Most of them were upset because the choreographer, who was also part of the dance, didn't show up. It was also their last formal practice because the event is this coming Saturday. She was at the city with her ex boyfriend. But they all continued the practice and I subbed for the choreographer. Dinner was held between 9-9:20pm. Practice was wrapped at around 9:30pm. We went straight to our friend's house, ate some more, and watch a suspense-thriller-scary-supposed-to-be movie. It was ok. The story and the way the film was done were actually decent. Overall it was always about the company that I was with so it was fun. The choreographer showed up in the middle of the movie. She said hi and some of us said hi back. She didn't stay long. No one really talked to her. It was messed up but it was more her bad. Anyway, we left at around midnight.

Today I worked at 6:15am. My co-worker returned the book he borrowed ages ago, "Tuesdays with Morrie." He liked the book and I always recommend it. It gives a different way on how to look at life. Later I will fix the music again because the CDs that I made turned out bad - technically bad. Some of the songs did not register, not being read by the cd player so I have to re-do it. It's all good.

I won't stop reading and analyzing theories of life. I'll go on in dreaming and continue my own adventure of life. Maybe someday I'll be able to define it based on my own words and experiences. Maybe someday I can look back and say that I've lived a good life.

I am now a grown up, and I'm scared

As usual, I worked on Tuesday morning. I stayed home in the afternoon. At night, I went to my friend's house for a study session.

Yesterday, I was off. I slept in so I finally got some rest even though it was not enough. On my way to school, I practiced - for the first time - the things that I needed to say for our group presentation. We had the presentation last night. I think we did okay. I knew I'll pass so it didn't really matter as much. I guess this happens on the last classes before graduating. Graduates become lazy.

Today I procrastinate, as usual. I had my take home exam for a week and I was only half-way done as of this morning. I took my book to work and answered a couple of questions during my lunch break. After work, instead of concentrating on it, I went online. Big surprise. I then dropped off one of my friends to work and then went to school. Driving to school I was really sleepy. I mean my eyes were really heavy. It was bad, I know. But I made it to school alive. That exam really gave me a headache.

I got to school one hour before the exam deadline. By the time was due, I finished it. Hasty but it was done. I stayed in the classroom for about 15 minutes to chat a bit and say goodbyes and good lucks.

Next In Line
What has life to offer me
When i grow old
What's there to look forward to
beyond the biting cold'
Coz they say it's difficult
Yes, stereotypical
You gotta be conventional,
You can't be so radical
So i sing this song
to all of my age
For these are the questions
We've got to face
For in this cycle that we call life
We are the ones who are next in line.
We are next in line..Oooh...Ohh..
We are next in line....
And we gotta work, we gotta feel,
let's open our eyes and do whatever it takes

This song has been stuck in my head after my finals. I was walking to my car and I still coudn't believe that I was done. I still can't. My diploma would be mailed to my parents in three months. What can I say, it's a slow process. I keep saying that I feel so old now that I have my bachelor's degree. But to be honest, it hasn't even really sank in yet. Before, I kept thinking that I was already in the real world. I was already paying my rent, my car, my car insurance, credit card(s), my classes, my books, etc. And then school's done. Suddenly I'm not a working student anymore. I am now just a worker. I'm so used in multi-tasking work and school so I don't know what to expect now. I'm not growing up in a regular sense anymore. I am now a grown up, and I'm scared.

That's life so far

Friday, I didn't work. I went to work to get my paycheck. I was able to get a bonus this year. Then my co-worker and I went to lunch to the Thai place that we've been wanting to try. Great food. We went to our other friend's house and hang out there. We were waiting for his parents to go home so all three of us can go because his parents didn't have keys to the apartment. We went to get some tapioca milk tea. Then went to San Francisco to my co-worker's sister's condo to pick up his sister's mails. She was in hawaii. She just had a baby. I didn't get home 'till past midnight.

Saturday, I worked at 5:30am. At 5pm, I drove one of my friends to the baker's house so she could pay the cake that she would be having for her party. Wow. Big cake.

At 6pm, my friends and I met up. We were going to my friend's nephew's first birthday party. At 7:40pm, we were there. We stayed until 10:15pm. At 10:40, we were at my other friend's house party. They drank. We danced. They smoked. I was, as always, the designated driver. The perks of the person who doesn't drink. The party was cool, though. I had fun. We left the paty at about 1am. I got home at 1:30am.

Sunday, I worked at 8am. I didn't really sleep much, obviously. But because I partly have insomnia, I had even less sleep than the already given time. At work, I was a walking zombie. Some of my friends stopped by at work (the ones I didn't go out with the night before) and one of them asked me if I cried. That's how bad my eyes were. See what a couple of nights without sleep, not only because of the time I got home but also because of my insomnia attacks. My boss, worried about me, bought me lunch. I was feeling a little better towards the end of my shift.

No internet yesterday so I read. I didn't want to sleep in the afternoon because I might not be able to sleep at night. At 8pm, the tv movie "The Five People You Meet In Heaven" was on. I loved the book. The movie wasn't bad, either, just doesn't have as much of special effects as I was expecting. It ended at 11pm. I went to sleep after.

Today, I worked at 6:15am. I had more sleep. About 5 hours. My work ended at 11:30am. 2pm I went to get my mail at my cousin's shop. I move so much that I just decided to have my important mails go there. Fun. Reminisce. Company. Work. Exhaustion. Sleep deprivation. That's life so far.

Change has become me

What did I do today? What else but work. I worked from 4:45-11:30am. My co-worker gave me a book entitled " The Good Earth" for my Christmas present. I'm going to read that on my plane ride back to my parents' house for Christmas. Anyway, I went home, checked my mails, and took a nap. I had to get back to work at 3pm because one of my co-workers called-in-sick. I left at around 4pm and went straight to my night class. There were few discussions and then my instructor gave as our take home exam. Went to drive-thru for dinner and ate it in my room while wasting away my time in front of the computer. It never cease to amuse me that no matter how long my day has been, I never really did much. I hope I'm not wasting my time here on earth. But even though my schedule seems so ordinary, changes still occur. I embrace every change that comes my way. Because somewhere along the way, change has become me.

I'm born free - until another day

No work today. No play either. Well, maybe a little. I didn't get up till 11am. If I wasn't hungry I wouldn't even get up. In the afternoon, I helped my friend with her music that she would be using for her party. We then picked up her dress (gown actually) from the seamstress who altered it. We just grabbed a quick bite and then I went straight to school. We had a group meeting from 5:30-6pm. I was supposed to go to class after but I didn't go. I'm feeling lazy. So I just drove home after the meeting. There were just some presentation by other groups today anyway so I decided to just go home. Tomorrow my other instructor will give us our take home final. We'll submit it next week. 2 more classes and I'm born free - until another day...