I am now a grown up, and I'm scared

As usual, I worked on Tuesday morning. I stayed home in the afternoon. At night, I went to my friend's house for a study session.

Yesterday, I was off. I slept in so I finally got some rest even though it was not enough. On my way to school, I practiced - for the first time - the things that I needed to say for our group presentation. We had the presentation last night. I think we did okay. I knew I'll pass so it didn't really matter as much. I guess this happens on the last classes before graduating. Graduates become lazy.

Today I procrastinate, as usual. I had my take home exam for a week and I was only half-way done as of this morning. I took my book to work and answered a couple of questions during my lunch break. After work, instead of concentrating on it, I went online. Big surprise. I then dropped off one of my friends to work and then went to school. Driving to school I was really sleepy. I mean my eyes were really heavy. It was bad, I know. But I made it to school alive. That exam really gave me a headache.

I got to school one hour before the exam deadline. By the time was due, I finished it. Hasty but it was done. I stayed in the classroom for about 15 minutes to chat a bit and say goodbyes and good lucks.

Next In Line
What has life to offer me
When i grow old
What's there to look forward to
beyond the biting cold'
Coz they say it's difficult
Yes, stereotypical
You gotta be conventional,
You can't be so radical
So i sing this song
to all of my age
For these are the questions
We've got to face
For in this cycle that we call life
We are the ones who are next in line.
We are next in line..Oooh...Ohh..
We are next in line....
And we gotta work, we gotta feel,
let's open our eyes and do whatever it takes

This song has been stuck in my head after my finals. I was walking to my car and I still coudn't believe that I was done. I still can't. My diploma would be mailed to my parents in three months. What can I say, it's a slow process. I keep saying that I feel so old now that I have my bachelor's degree. But to be honest, it hasn't even really sank in yet. Before, I kept thinking that I was already in the real world. I was already paying my rent, my car, my car insurance, credit card(s), my classes, my books, etc. And then school's done. Suddenly I'm not a working student anymore. I am now just a worker. I'm so used in multi-tasking work and school so I don't know what to expect now. I'm not growing up in a regular sense anymore. I am now a grown up, and I'm scared.