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Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Not spectacular

I'm deleting the little site that I made at geocities so I'm going to post the few poems that I made for that site over here.

08/23/05
For it is the night that rises,
For it is the night that doesn't sleep,
For it is the night that invades day light
For it is the night that doesn't dream.
For it is the night that has pale lamp,
For it is the night that has eyes ablaze,
For it is the night that holds silence,
For it is the night that owns fear.

08/24/05
Broken

Listen to the cries that pierce the heart,
The cry of passion and the cry of pain.
But why do I hear voices that are empty,
Instead of reaching deep inside of me?
Study the faces of the beloved,
Of the suffering and of the free.
But why am I looking at someone who can't see
The true meaning behind every glory?
I feel the shadow engulf my being,
I walk past the haunting ground of darkness
And as I shut my eyes I hold my breath, uneasy
Knowing exactly why I failed to be happy.

9/26/05

Silver lake of dreams
Rushing through my heart and soul
And I have found you.

9/27/05

Mourner leaves familiar stain
Heaven warms the streaking dark days
Memories playing the season of tears
Friendless instrument of passing.

9/27/05

Spread your pretty wings
And prepare to fly away
Touch the world again.

Not much and definitely not spectacular.

Monday, November 07, 2005

I have to

For the training, we were given things to memorize - airport codes! 5 pages of airport codes have to be memorized by the time we go to training. On the second day of training, we have an exam. Every week after that, we have major exam that we have to pass with 80% and all of the exams are comprehensive. I really hope I do well.

Yesterday my part-time job had a holiday meeting. It was supposed to start at 3pm but I didn't get there until 3:30pm because I went to the wrong community center. Anyway, after the meeting, I talked to my manager. I asked if he can put me on one month vacation (nov.14-dec. 15). I told him that I was attending a week conference and the rest of the month I'm taking for vacation. I felt bad for lying but I need a job in case I fail the training. I'll definitely do my best to pass the training but there's nothing certain in life. Well, my manager let me go on vacation even though November and December are supposed to be blocked out for vacation because holidays are the busiest time in any retail. He just told me to give him something expensive from where I'm going. Darn.

Well, my biggest problem is my financial status. The training is unpaid so I won't have income for a month upto when I move across country for my new job as a flight attendant. I still have to pay for my car until December (so just one more payment and my parents will assume the payments after that - I really feel bad), one more credit card that has balance, and I don't have much in my bank. This is going to be tough but I believe I'll be ok. I have to.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

fly high

Well it's been a crazy couple of weeks for me. Last week I only worked two days at my part-time job which was good considering I was sick. I was also contacted via e-mail by the airlines I submitted my resume to. The told me to contact their inflight recruiter to schedule an interview and flight. So I did. I stayed home after work on Saturday and watch a supposed to be scary documentary with my family. On Sunday, my brothers, my older bro's gf, my sister and I went grocery shopping after church and lunch (we went to buffet with my parents). I knew we shouldn't have grocery shopped together. Most of the things we bought were junk food! We also watched Saw II.

On Monday I worked at my day job. At 10pm I was on my way to the airport for the 1am flight. My brothers dropped me off and of course, I had to forget my purse in the car so I had to call my house via collect so they can call my brothers to give me my purse. The flight was ok with the exception of my lack of sleep. I was able to take a nap but woke up with stiff neck. I arrived my destination at about 6am. I ate cold plate (couple of shrimp, couple slices of balogne, cheese, crackers, grapes, cashew nuts) on the plane so I really didn't care for breakfast. I did have decaf green tea because my stomach was getting acidic. My interview was not till 9am so I hang around at the baggage claim area, planning to take the shuttle to the training center at 8am. I sort of dozed off but still semi-conscious so when I went outside to take the shuttle I was a little refreshed. I took the wrong shuttle and it was a good thing that I still had a lot of time to kill so I was able to get to my interview on time. I met a lot of nice people, most of them ended up to my group. Before the interview, there was an activity group. There were about 20-25 people to be interviewed. The group activity mostly consisted of five people. Then we went to individual interview. Some of us were instructed to come back at 1pm. Being prompt, couple of group members and I went back at around 12:30pm. The interview conductor saw us and told us that the reason we had to go back by 1pm was because some people were still interviewing and might have not been invited to the second phase of the process. So he led us to the same room we were intially at before the individual interview. Here we found out the all of my group members made it for the second individual interview. We also found out the recruiters sent half of the people home. Then we went to the second individual interview. After I went to mine, I was invited to the panel interview. We were "hidden" to another room so that other applicants who weren't invited won't be able to see us and won't get upset. Apparently I said something right because after a long process and an extra long panel interview (which I found out later on I had one of the longest panel interviews), they invited me to the inflight training program! I am to start my training on November 14, 2005 and the training ends December 15, 2005. If I've successfully finish the training (getting at least 80% on the weekly exam), they would officially hire me. My first day to work would be December 24, 2005. I was dumbfounded. I didn't expect to get that far in the interview knowing how competitive it is, and I especially didn't expect to get invited to the training! It's truly remarkable. I spent the last couple of days nervous and excited at the same time. I am worried of my financial ability to move across country but at the same time I am excited because this is truly what I want to do. The real sad part is that I won't be home for Christmas and that I won't be spending much time to the new house which I still have to pay monthly with my parents and older brothers. But those are tomorrow's problems. I just know that I'm up to a great adventure and that I am going to fly high.