It's frustrating...

Sometimes I feel like my beta fish and I have the same fate, or at least almost the same lifestyle. For the most part, we're both loners swimming in our own little world...pretending that we're part of the bigger world. We're both afraid that the same type of species would enter our fish bowl because we might get hurt in the process. I'm trying to change, I even flipped my career completely but I find my self retreating back more and more. I wish I knew what to do. How can someone feel independent and helpless at the same time? It's frustrating...